Yessssssssssssssss

:) :) :) Thank you God! We heard the heartbeat. We had an ultrasound appointment today and it went really well. I still can't believe it. Out peanut is 1cm long with a heart rate of 110pbm. I don't know how a 1cm embryo has heartbeat. The place was very nice and the tech was awesome. She let Arash in the room and explain us everything and even asked if we have any question. Very different from the last one. I am so glad I refused to go to the last one. I still can't believe it. I wanted to scream, but managed only to drop a tear.

God's plan

Dearest God! What's your plan for me and DH? Is it to kill us while waiting. You are probably testing my patience, but you know me; Not a good patient person!

Dr. Rowe called today and said they have not done my hCG test yet!!!!! I have to wait until tomorrow morning to find out. I think this is the hardest one so far to wait for... Hopefully this remains the hardest! Amen.

Baby please stick around

Yesterday was beginning of my 6 week so called pregnancy. 
So I went to my ultrasound appointment yesterday morning. I have to say it was the shadiest ultrasound office I've ever been to. The technician was this Chinese lady with very cold attitude and she was not even answering me when I would ask a question. She kept saying I don't know; you should ask your doctor. She didn't even let DH in. Anyway later in the day Dr Rowe apologized for the unprofessional u/s they send me to. Apparently they know all about their performance very well, but since they wanted to make an appointment soon for me that was the only option (welcome to free Canadian healthcare!)

In the afternoon I had my RE appt. He said based on technician observation my gestational sac was empty and they couldn't see a fetal pole and potentially my pregnancy is not vital. I really tried hard not to break in tears in his office. He said he doesn't fully trust the ultrasound result and he ordered a second hCG to confirm the possibility of miscarriage. I am 6 wks but I think it's 24dpo so not sure if it's too early to see anything or not. RE said with that hCG being 1722 on Thursday we should have seen a fetal pole.

I am suppose to call today in 1.5 hrs to find out if there was a doubling hCG rate. If there was he will send me to a second ultrasound appt. This is the hardest wait time I've even done. Very devastating to find out your are miscarrying. Last night I was thinking how much I am already attached to this little peanut inside me. Baby! please stick around mommy's belly and grow! God pleaaaaaaaaaaase send us some sticky dust to us!